Wednesday, September 10, 2008

how time really changes

reflecting on previous years, life had never been this way. in terms of age, physical and maturity, everything has never been like this.

i might be considered as childish when i was in my early 18 and 19. yet i felt that i was mature enough to be plucked and placed in a bucket of love. until then when i realize, i'm too young to be involved in that lovey dovey thingy. how funny it is when now i think that it's too early for youths of the age of 18-19 to get committed in love. which i've almost forgotten, i'd once similar. but maybe what i think now is true that getting committed in love at the age of 18-19 is early. haih... i have no right to declare the most appropriate time to get involved in love as love is something undefined and it may happen to anyone at anytime.

how time really changes the norm that i used to live in. the weekend which i used to spend. the night which i used to have. and the day which i used to live. i mean when i was in love and having that someone in heart. i used to be waiting for weekend to strike so that i could go out for a date. i used to be waiting for the night to end so that i could get that sweet lovely message. i used to be waiting for the day so that i could start a new chapter and reducing countdown for the union of two hearts.

now? everything progresses in a totally different way. there's no more weekend for me to wait. there's no more night for me to be excited. but there's always a day for me to eagerly welcome as i believe a new day might offer me a new hope and destiny.

i know and i realize that i'm always complaining to my friends and family that i'm single and there's nobody to love me. i always say that i might end up as a spinster as the guys i know are mostly occupied and the guys i know are definitely limited. and i know some of my colleagues really can't stand my endless grief as i own no right of whining upon being single. my friends said that it's my choice to be single as the only thing i know is rejecting people. but have u ever wondered why did i always say no? because i just couldn't be sure that there's still someone on this earth that could offer me the greatest love. i don't dream of Taj Mahal nor mountains of money to rejuvenate myself. but i desire only for an earnest heart which could accept me the way i am and guiding me back on the track which i had once left.

to answer the most popular question that people have always probed on me, i am obviously single. i own nobody who could i label as my boyfriend. is that a problem to u? do i seem pathetic to u? i don't care if u think that being single is pathetic. i'm just happy with the way it is and when the time comes and when there's really that "someone", i'll be more than happy to let u know.

as for now, i'm not searching far from waiting. but i'm learning near to understanding. =)




6 comments:

Anonymous said...

we are in the same boat dear..
n being single is not pathetic.its just one way of looking people at different things.n time to explore things as you want..

not searching far from waiting but learning to understanding..nice one.. +D

fathiah zulkafli said...

yeappp.being single is not pathetic.but people just couldn't stop asking the same question again n again. "ko dah ade bf?", "bile ko nk ade bf?", and other similar questions. lepak la dlu kn. dah x jumpe nk wat cmne. kalo btul ade jodoh ade la.tp tula..kne usaha gak.ni xde usaha tu psl ssh kot.hehe =p

btul ezat.stuju2.it's time to explore!!!

BakaDasu said...

Hei, its not that bad to be single right.

Being single means u dont have commitments. U dont have someone u should take care, which he/she is so sensitive that he/she can be hurt only with a small mistake like not replying 1 SMS. And its also means u dont have a heart that is so sensitive that can be hurt easily.

And single means u are free. U can go out with anyone n nobody can say no except ur friends n family.

Single means u cant hurt others people feeling so deeeply and u also are not afraid of getting hurt so deeply, right.

But, it just a human's desire to have someone to be with. And we giving our heart and future to that someone, so we should take our time and choose the right someone, right? Everyone should be choosy, at least in this matter.

fathiah zulkafli said...

haha.u know how choosy i am right?i x memilih sgt dlm hal lain tp kalo psl hal ni i memilih.amat.kuikuikui =p

Miss Jannah said...

but exploration comes with responsibilities. like if you're in the midst of exploration, then our reactions need to be parallel with our main intention.

i know it's so confusing but that's what i believe.

fathiah zulkafli said...

i definitely understand with what u're trying to convey here Jan. am definitely clear with ur meaning.maksud Jan dlm tempoh explore tu action kne la menyampaikan maksud exploration tu kn?so kalo setakat nk explore n fhm jgn la action tu cm kapel kn?i know n i understand but sometimes our actions will just be misjudged by others.people may say anything about that.when we're too close with a guy people will straight away think we're couple but d fact is that we're not.how would we deal with that?ssh kn?hehe.sama jugak la mcm janda kalo baik skit ngn laki lain mule la org mengata.d same applies on those who are single.we ain't no space to get to know others even better =p